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3rd May Bräker is tempted by "Philis", but resists.
14th May Bräker loses a swarm of bees, but on the 16th his children find another swarm for him in the forest and a neighbour helps him capture it from the top of a fir-tree. Bräker is stung in the arm and marvels at the effective weapons of these little creatures. In Lichtensteig he attends an ecclesiastical court, which is hearing a divorce case, and is badly shocked. Rather than stand such a scene he would flee the country. [Chronik, pp 236-237]
25th May "We are stumping about as usual, full of sweet anticipations, and yet stroll all the time past the things we wish for - ideas fallen to dust - plans come to nothing - projects that have collapsed are the reward of our days. These past days, so sacred, so delightful, these days I spent in my little garden in great pleasure though the sweat streamed from my visage. Yes, delight it is, delight it was, to dig around in my little piece of earth's kingdom, though I enjoy no other fruits of it except that work, so beneficial to the body, to the health. To lay out a garden for oneself, to be a gardener in these golden days, to be one's own master, to do it with joy and pleasure, to hear the concert of the birds close by, God's voice rolling among the clouds, to sit in the shade and observe all these beautiful objects, to rejoice in good health and all God's fine gifts, that is bliss, pure bliss sent by God!"
On the same day he has a visit, from "H.L. and Frau", probably Giezendanner. [Chronik, p 237]
27th - 28th May Bräker and Johannes visit St. Gallen, purely as a treat. From Herisau onwards they are able to ride on pack-horses. [Chronik, p 237]
Early June brings more temptations to Bräker, he deliberates whether to set up one "Lisgen" as his mistress. He decides that she might be just as much inclined as Salome to boss him about. [Chronik, p 238]
5th June Bräker has two trees felled to give more light in the house. He has also taken drastic action in his private life and come off well in a scene that he was dreading - but does not give details. [Chronik, p 239]
17th-18th June Bräker goes on business to Glarus, accompanied by Jakob. Zwicky-Stäger's son shows them the family factory and the neighbourhood. [Chronik, p 239]
27th June In the evening Bräker fetches 58 pounds of cotton from Lichtensteig. On the way home there is a thunderstorm, the worst he has ever known. "Wife and children on their knees before the terrible majesty of God - praying, weeping, trembling and quaking - this moved my soul uncommonly - I had to unite my prayers with theirs - to quiet my fearful conscience - for it is such a bad conscience that makes such cowardly fear". [Chronik, p 240]29th and 30th June There is much local speculation about the death of a young man, thought to have been poisoned by a jealous mistress. Bräker sees the accused woman led to the Rathaus [council chambers] in Herisau for trial. [Chronik, p 240]
5th July "Thunder may indeed proceed from natural causes - but yet I know that it is the voice of God - even my God - and that is always agreeable to me - for as long as my conscience is clear."Contents |